Saturday, February 25, 2012

So this is the beginning

A loooong story made very short...
I had a blog, once. It was my outlet, my vent, the release from all the thoughts and info bouncing around in my brain. I found love and support and I learned how to be comfortable in my own skin. I was brutally honest and wide open and, very often, wrong. But I learned about me and I learned about life and I just...I loved it. It was everything to me in the really hard times and the really joyful times, and it kept me sane.
But my spouse hated it.
My honesty and open nature has always been an irritant to him, and finally his irritation with my outlet was so great that I stopped. I gave up. I gave in.
The more my marriage crumbled, the more I needed the place and the people I loved. I would stare at a blank screen, yearning to write what was in my heart, and know he hated it. I knew the trouble it would cause and the stories, once all the really important stuff was filtered out for public consumption, were just bare sterile shells of an image someone else wanted to convey. So I didn't bother.
You'll find out more of the bits and pieces as time goes on, I'm sure. I was going to pick up where I left off, but instead I think I'll start fresh...
I'm a 30-something, I have 3 kids, I love my job, I am driven by passion and follow my heart entirely too much without thinking things through. And frankly, I like all that about me.