Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Frankly, I'm terrified

The Con was an amazing success. The week flew by and I honestly can't imagine that Heathen and I have ever had more fun. Her husband is trying to get stationed near here and I hope beyond hope that it will happen because I miss her like crazy. Sometimes we even freak ourselves out with how similar our minds work. By similar I mean EXACTLY THE SAME.

Ex got a new job. It pays way less than his old one and will take him to the middle of nowhere. I hope he truly enjoys his new career path. That's all I'm going to say about that.

Anyhow, he's going to announce his move on facebook soon, so to head off some of the uncomfortable questions I sent a private message to about 50 people announcing that we separated in January and have since dissolved our marriage. Now I'm sitting here waiting for the backlash.

I think I just may get slaughtered in the court of public opinion on this one. The woman usually does, especially if she's the one who files. Yes, I "quit", I "gave up", I was "selfish". I know what people say, I'm just hoping I've braced myself well enough for it...

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Con fever

Not to be confused with Con Flu...

For those of you not in the know, Con Flu is the creeping cruds you get after spending an entire weekend amongst the, generally unwashed, masses at a comic convention, or Comic Con.  That sour musky smell you detect when entering a con is referred to as Con Funk and is a mixture of desperation, obliviousness, and a complete inability to grasp social convention.
For those who knew me "before" you may recall that last year we went to the first female centric Comic Con, Geek Girl Con. "We" being my bestie Heathen and I. Are you keeping up here? Anyhow, there are a lot of things that are wacky in the real world which are perfectly normal in the Con world. Like walking around in a costume all frakkin weekend in the middle of an average to large size city where only a small portion of other homo sapiens are doing the same. This is called cosplay. (San Diego Comic Con doesn't count for this example, since pretty much the whole city is overrun by geeks and nerds for Comic Con and everyone looks like a crazy person) Moving on...
Costumes run from cardboard to professional, well known characters and pop culture references to the obscure. Another phenomenon is crossplay, where someone dresses up as a character of the opposite gender. Heathen and I have created our own version of crossplay, where we take male characters and sort of craft them into feminine versions of the same persona. I have spent hours pouring over con pics and there aren't a ton of other people doing this yet, so it's exciting to see how it develops in the years to come. Maybe it will become a phenomenon of its own, with a catchy moniker and everything. Last year we were characters from "Dr Horrible's Sing Along Blog", a delightful Joss Whedon number that we both love, and this year we are going to be characters from "Firefly", another Joss Whedon (read: GENIUS) franchise that we are total fangirls for.
The con sold out last year, which was quite the feat for a first year, niche audience con. We had a thoroughly lovely time and I am all too stoked to see it in action in a larger space this year. It's super awesome to be surrounded with ladies of my ilk and especially to spend time with the best bestie the universe has to offer, Heathen.
So hopefully I will update with pics from our shenaniganizing and you will love them. But we'll have a good time even if I don't post pics, so there's that...

Life goes on. Divorce is expensive btw, even if you file together and agree on everything. My state has a 90 day waiting period before they finalize so I'm basically sitting that out now. If I had filed on my own and we had gone through the whole court ordeal I could have been done by now, but I think it was worth the wait to make sure we both felt like we had a fair shake in the final agreement. It has been almost 8 months of separation and things have mostly evened out. Ex is harboring some sort of unrealistic hope that I will change my mind and come running back with open arms, but that is SO not happening. Even my mother noted that I sound much happier when I spoke with her a few days ago, and though this is hard in ways I couldn't begin to describe, I feel that I am finally closer to being a complete functioning healthy person than I was previously. I like myself again, I feel good enough again, and frankly, that is worth more than I could ever convey in words.

I've met someone. Not really met, as it's a coworker I knew before, but I am getting to know them on a more personal level than before. His kid and my kids have hung out together and my kids seem to like him a lot, so that's a plus. A lot of my opinion of you as a person is based on how you treat my kids, so this bodes well. He even came over and mowed my lawn while I was running errands last week, just to make my life a little easier, I'm not really sure what to say about that. It's an extremely scary place to be, a whole new world one might say. It's nice to know, though, that it doesn't really matter what happens here because I'm happy on my own and don't need someone else to make me complete. That's a very liberating realization.

Have you ever noticed how things can seem so complicated but so simple at the same time? Just asking...

(I would like to note that Blogger has tried to spell check every single geek related term in this post. Get with the times Blogger, Whedon ain't going anywhere)